Tuesday, May 25, 2010

What do you think about when you're alone?

I never blog and I should. It makes me happy. Even reading my old blogs make me happy even though I mostly blog sad things. I noticed that I blog a lot about loneliness. I can't help it. It's always on my mind and I'm usually lonely when I blog.

How much time do you spend alone every day? I think being alone is healthy and necessary but it's possible to have too much solitude. Driving alone sometimes kills me and I do it for at least 2 hours everyday. I think about (you guessed it!) my loneliness and where I'm going in life. If it's a good day I feel positive and picture myself doing exciting things.  I picture myself succeeding at whatever I desire that day. I usually picking myself living in New York City (guessed it again!) where there are more people like me and falling in love with some faceless guy. I picture myself finally feeling like I fit in and wearing adorable and not too trendy clothes.

What do you think about when you're alone? Do you worry about what other people are doing? I try not to do that but it's difficult not too. Especially if you had a romantic relationship with that person. I'm always afraid of running into a number of my exes and I know if I stop thinking about them, then I actually WILL run into them. I swear it's a law of nature or something.

Theme song for these many alone moments:

1 comment:

Fairlight said...

I think about sex. About wanting to save the world. I think about the fact that I'm in my 30's and still single and then I look down and realize I'm in desperate need of a pedicure. I think about how I can tweak my southern fried chicken recipe for the 700 time, to be even better than the last time I made it...does it need further tweaking? and then my thoughts drift to a cold beer, masturbating and/or taking a nap... eveentually I cave and do them all...except for the 'saving the world' part... still workin on that.